Seth’s World View

It’s a new year, and I finally feel like posting. When the words don’t seem to change, there’s not much point in posting. This will be a good year, though I’ve been burned out of late, resting more, unmotivated. Have had a few good insights, a few good conversations, some hope, better faith, along with some loneliness. I started looking at international work and volunteer opportunities. In 2 years, I could see going overseas again for several years a legitimate possibility. We’ll see.

I’ve felt my share of numbness the last quarter (though that statement, like emotion, isn’t logical). I had a talk with a friend yesterday and shared lots of things, lots of things I internalize and have internal discussions about. My internal debates involve lots of false evidence and false conclusions, but sometimes utterly convincing. Less so at the moment.

I’m feeling right now. I am feeling really stupid and blind. I don’t even know how to explain that without details. Right now I don’t want to try.

I’m optimistic about this year, about what I’ll become, what I’ll do, and about getting my eyes off myself. I’m doing well…but am disappointed right now.