Seth’s World View

Been thinking about my heart lately, or perhaps feeling, attempting to. That, and the myriad ambitions and goals I’ve had. Benevolent goals mostly, often logical, even if taking risks. Calculated. I’m rather tired of calculations. They don’t add up anyway. There’s much I like about my present course. It then comes down to a matter of heart, and how much I’m willing to put into this life of mine. I suppose I’ve had some success in life, and that without ever giving close to 100%. But not enough success to be satisfied. I don’t doubt I can be financially successful and make lots of money. It’s more a matter of whether I really want to. There’s the question: what do I want, want enough to work toward no matter what. I’m rather well-rounded, partly because of lack of focus, partially because I really like to learn and explore. I’ve worked quite a bit on bettering my weaknesses, and while some are still evident, I’d rather like to feel good about bettering my strengths. So many paths I could excel at, if I really wanted to, that whole heart thing again. I’ve gotten used to holding back, kindof wierd to go in the other direction. Still holding back though.

I’d just like to live. And you know, I have one shot at this, and it’s my life. I’m thinking about the words of Steve: “Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma—which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” I don’t know where my heart and intuition are leading, but they are, but I can’t see, but I’m starting to feel, even if I don’t understand. I’m ready to reimagine life, I’m going to. Reimagine.

To be continued…