Seth’s World View

A few weeks ago, I prayed. I often pray, and my prayers are often rather powerless, just a string of words, only sometimes with emotion, lamenting or wondering or just processing with God. But I prayed a few weeks ago, out loud, with emotion, asking why, and actually throwing my heart out there. And you know what, I actual felt like I was connecting with God, and He with me. And I thought of the first commandment, to love God with all my heart. And then I thought of the second, and how often I don’t love. And then I realized that loving God with all my heart, and receiving His love (with prayer being a primary vehicle) was necessary for me to love people. The 1st comes before the 2nd.

I’ve managed to not pray that way as much as I’d like to since. Maybe, partly, I just simply don’t believe in prayer, at least, in prayer where I ask for things. But there is a dynamic in prayer that seems worthwhile, and powerful. And maybe if I believe in it more, I’ll pray more.