Seth’s World View

The weekend was a melancholy one, with the harbingers of hopeless destiny haunting my mind. I was rather lost inside myself, and had to find some hope outside myself. Battling lies within my soul is a daunting fight, and my defense is often inadequate. And in truth, it’s often that I feel inadequate, though that’s the lie. A conversation with one closer than a brother (who also happens to be my brother) was a good step to still the rocky waters, though not enough to get me looking to the sky.

Despite a good Sunday with a friend, I still sat quietly in the evening, with a few tears slowly falling. And then, by request, I picked up a guitar to practice for worship on Tuesday evening. Instead of playing for others, this time I sang songs that resonated with my inner being, and I worshipped. And in ways I can’t explain, a peace was found. I couldn’t reason my way into truth, but in losing myself in an honest expression of passion, I found strength to look up, and look beyond myself, and to smile as I laid myself to rest.

This morning, I arose, but my heart didn’t. Efforts to focus just didn’t bring clarity, or productivity. So I pressed forward, and a picture started to form, but only started. Then a lunch meeting, then another meeting, then a programming lesson, then a strategic discussion. So I go driving, home, and I feel, I feel excited, and happy, not in a contrived way, but genuinely happy that I get to be a part of Everyday Joe’s, and Crown Point Solutions, and that my brother is here, and that he and I are working together. And it’s just wonderful. Tomorrow, who knows. I’m just thankful for today.