Seth’s World View

A very strange week emotionally, while busy externally with many things. I’ll be honest, if there is nothing greater than this plane of reality, I really find life overrated and I don’t always feel like going on. So when I struggle with faith, hope, love, and the God who is, I’m on the edge of despair at those times. I felt better on the way back in finding a measure of peace and hope, but then collapsed again yesterday. Today, I came to grips with how much faith, hope, and love is a choice. I have to choose to hope, choose to find truth, choose to have faith that that there is more to life, and that it’s really okay. I’m alright at the moment. I heard one preacher say awhile back how Satan wants to get us down. Well, whether it’s Satan or myself, there’s really not much point in being down a lot. I again come to the conclusion that as hard as facing fears, taking risks, and living by faith in a better tomorrow is hard, despair and defeat are far worse, and I really believe God desires me to find freedom in faith rather than bondage in despair. This life requires so much vigilance. Today, I will overcome.