Seth’s World View

I want to settle, on everything. My life has always been up in the air, ready to change. I like change. I think. Or maybe I don’t anymore. I do like change, but I need constants amidst that change. Relationships are that ultimate constant, but they can be constant no matter where I live. I require a fulfilling vocation, a fruitful place of ministry, and a woman who loves me. Right now, I have none of those, only a floating life. My faith in God is not strong enough to sustain it, though it’s no doubt good to have my faith stretched to its limit. I wish I could make everyone happy, that there was only one choice, and one didn’t have to disappoint some to please others.

I have a month to be an adventure photographer, which is my main stated dream, and I’m sure it will be good, but I realize I don’t really want to be an adventure photographer. Oh heart, where art thou? That’s OK. It’s time for the next step, and that only, with the rest to await its time.