Seth’s World View

Actually, don’t even know what to write, but need to. Ready to go to New Zealand, need to have a focus, a life. Really not sure what life is beyond that. I’ve been so pessimistic that past year or so. Guess it’s ultimately not trusting God that there really is a point to all this. And it’s not that life is bad, just not meaningful enough. You know though, if I and others are the standard, and God isn’t, then my view is flawed. I don’t just feel like my view is flawed, but my whole person, my whole manhood, like I’m just not cut out for it all.