Seth’s World View

How do I start what will be my last Colorado Times? I’m at a loss. I’ll give the facts. I’ve debated whether to stay in Fort Collins or move back east. Though God told me to wait on the answer, I decided I would rather drive myself crazy mulling it over. Turns out the decision was made for me: I’m getting laid off, again, on June 6th. I plan, at the moment, to leave Colorado on June 16th.

This has been a hard year. Then again, it seems every year is a hard year, though some are harder than others. Aside from not having a job earlier this year, I can’t say it was bad circumstantially. Let’s just say I’ve made some mistakes and failed in certain ways, though part of that is not meeting my own expectations. I have also been uncertain what my purpose is and how I fit into things. Through prayer and reading, I think I can more accurately state things now. In many ways, I have simply not trusted in God’s goodness, been self-centered, and have been a coward. Mostly it’s the self-centered part, cause that’s when I take my eyes off God, put them on myself, and then figure out how to perform flawlessly. It’s funny…I can have a good goal, such as serving people, and if I am honest with myself, I can find ways where it is ultimately self-serving, for my glory, so I can carve another notch in the wall, or perhaps add a line to my resume. I just wonder how often the good of the other person is my only concern.

If you know me at all, and most of you do, you know I like to figure things out. When it comes down to it, it’s a matter of control. Sure, I want to do the right thing, which is good, but I want to be certain of the direction and results. Well, it turns out God isn’t bound by my reason, and He will put me in places for reasons only He knows, and I may glorify Him in ways I’m not aware of. So, perhaps I’m just beginning to grasp the nature of faith.

I’ll most likely head out on June 16th. My parent’s house will serve as Home Base, and I’ll drop my stuff off and spend a few days there. Then on June 28th, I have a wedding to attend in E-Town. From there, all I have to do is find a place to live and get a job. I’m targeting Pittsburgh, Harrisburg, and Cleveland. If I go to New Zealand, it would be in January. For now, I’m not going to worry about it. I’m looking forward to reconnecting with family and friends, and from there, it’s out of my hands.

If you wish to send me snail mail after June 15th, send to P.O. Box 307, Cranesville, PA 16410. Preferred email address is seth@thunderbeach.net, as my swdaire@hotmail.com account won’t exist much longer. Cell phone # will remain the same for the immediate future: 970.420.0855. I’m only planning on sending mass emails when there is something major to report.

Anyway, as I approach the end of my tenure here, God continues to work on my heart. I’ll miss it here, and I know I’ll miss many of you. We’ll keep in touch though, and I will definitely step foot in Colorado again. As the song says, friends are friends forever.